Friday, November 19, 2004
guess im feeling broken inside. ):
talked to her on the phone last night till arnd 2
she's sick and alone at home.
her parents went to canda.
that silly jus refuse to boil water.
-shakes head
she's meetin her gf tmr.
poor them. didnt meet up for so long.
as we chatted along, i realised smth really strange.
we both started to look back :
the first day we met,
the first movie tgt,
the first time she sent me home,
the first time she hugged me,
the first kiss she gave,
the first time we held hands. n etc.
and yes, we had the usual questionaire! ((:
that was what she called as TRUTH game.
hahahaha. silly girl.
i really hope everythg u said was the truth, i trust u.
i dont blame u for the brk up.
why shld i?
feelings come and go, in and out.
i admit, i dont deny that i was really upset, disappointed and a lil angry with u.
but after some brainwashin, i thought the other way.
so yah, no worries.
i finally gotta understand the plenty reasons for the brk up.
thanks. (: thanks for everythg.
sweet memories are meant to be kept in my heart.
never will i forget, never will they leave my mind for a sec.
maybe becos of hidin too much stuffs btwn each other made us tear apart.
that's why i kept tellin her, never keep anythin frm ure gf.
jus hopin she'll understand. ((:
she claims that she's a matured and big girl now.
which i think i shld think abt it.
but well, since this is so, i hope she can think like wise.
she claims im the mature and silly girl. (:
hahaha. which i agree lahh.
silly and stupid.
thats for me.):
afterall, we'll still the best of fwens.
i told her id be here whenever she needs someone.
i dont wanna make her feel the way i felt.
being hurt, alone, lonely, sad, abandoned and
not a single soul was there for me when plenty promised to.
its hurting and painful to the heart. ): i hate empty promises.
maybe i aint the good looking gf u wanted,
maybe i aint that sexaye lil thing u wished for,
maybe i aint that ideal gf u wanted
maybe i aint that nice nice gf u wanted.
maybe im jus not the right one for you
and the right decision made.
now that u finally found the right one,
all the best to you. (:
long entry for her indeed.
okayy, back yesterdayy.
went out with big one. ((:
she cheered me up, made me smile. (:
that sweetest lil thang!
we cant decide on where to go!
thats bad, aint it?
went ps instead, walked ard.
wanted to watch movie.
shutter. -covers ears, mouth, eyes
its not that i dont dare to watch, i really want to!
but not only the two of us lahh.
i kept telling her she'll regret after the show
for watching with me.
she dont believe.
TSKK.
jace knows what will happen in the cinemas.
she's the only one who knows what goes on whenever i watch horror.
hees. its terrible! -covers eyes!
jace's nice, she wldnt tell the world abt it! :D:D
we did smth really evil when we got so bored.
hahahahaha. i enjoyed lah! thanks! (:
went to haf lunch at long john's
saw sheila! (: didnt say hi thou.
big one paid for it! hahahah.
went home after that. (:
thanks for being there whenever i needed someone
thanks for keeping me accompany thru the day.
thanks for the lunch.
thanks for cheering me up.
thanks for sending me home. ((:
long entry indeed. (:
i love this song!
enjoy. (((:
(VERSE 1)
who needs to feel that way
who needs those words to say
who wants to give their hearts
to watch it fade away.
cuz ive made up my mind
i didnt wanna know,
why should i find a love
that isnt here to stay,
i wasnt waiting until you came along,
and now i need you to tell me where my heart belongs but
(Chorus)
i dont wanna fall in love,
till i fall in love with you
and you showed me what my heart already knew.
i dont wanna fall in love,
till i know the love is true
cuz i need you to feel the way i do,
when i give my heart to you
(VERSE 2)
Ive seen the tears they cried,
when its time for goodbye
i didnt wanna be the one whos asking why
i didnt think that i would ever feel so strong,
but now i know that i was wrong
(Chorus)
i dont wanna fall in love,
till i fall in love with you
and you showed me what my heart already knew.
i dont wanna fall in love,
till i know the love is true
cuz i need you to feel the way i do,
when i give my heart to you
Now i believe it's worth the chance
to find a love that lasts
for all my life
give me a sign so i will always know this love is right.
this love is right..
(chorus) x2
; stick with you
